Saturday, November 29, 2008

a free Saturday!

for the first time in recent history i have a free day today.

part of me is simply glad for time off, and another part is concerned about the frickin' bills....

gifts for clients and friends this year will be along the lines of scented votive candles in glass holders--nothing extravagant! in years past i have given to my siblings through Mercy Corps, Heifer International, and Oxfam International, all of which will arrange to deliver a sheep, or goat, or hive of bees, or flock of chickens to a family in need, far across the globe. (this year i am thinking about giving the money i would have spent on all 3 of them to the sister in Galveston. my other sister set up a bank account in Houston for donations.)

another great gift idea comes from Kiva. it's a group that helps fund entrepreneurs all over the world with loans from folks all over the world--the minimum loan is $25. i've only made one loan, but it was the last one before that person got all the money they needed to start, so that felt good!

personally....this is a hard time of year to be alone, so i am hugging my furbies a lot. i had a very involved dream last night featuring The Last Drunk Guy. it has been years since i dreamed about him.

after we finally broke up (1999) i dreamed about him a LOT. months later, i then found that if i thought about him during the day--say, saw a truck that looked like his--i would have a dream that night. but like i said, it's been a few years since he showed up in my dreamtime. it was a little disturbing to find that he is still enmeshed--even a little bit--in my psyche!

my heart feels frozen. i'm afraid to want more than solitude (albeit furry solitude) because relationships are so painful when they end.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

thankful for....

rain last night and this morning

the Dalai Lama
(today's quote: "To deepen your gratitude toward all people, it is helpful to reflect on the unintended kindness of those who provide goods and services without necessarily knowing the names or faces of those whom they serve. In this life there are so many facilities we enjoy--nice buildings, roads, and so forth--that are produced by other people.")

my son
(he arranged for us to volunteer at a church in South Tucson this morning at 10:00)

my animal family

friends and loved ones near and far

the love and trust
(and business!) of my clientèle

Barak Obama
(and the re-emergence of hope for this country and our future)

being alive here and now


Wednesday, November 26, 2008


(from the Organic Consumers Association e-update received in today's Inbox)

*Ten companies now control more than two-thirds of global proprietary seed sales.

*Ten companies now control almost 90% of agrochemical sales worldwide.

*Ten companies now account for three-quarters of industry revenues.

*The top ten pharmaceutical companies control 55% of the global drug market.

Source: ETC Group's new 48-page report, "Who Owns Nature?", released last week.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

today's Blogthing

You Are the Bow Pose

You are an open hearted person. You seek connections and make them easily.

You are naturally generous--especially with your love and your time.

You have a knack for thinking up interesting ideas. You are an inventor and a creator.

You approach everything in life with a relaxed attitude. You accept what you can't change.

Monday, November 17, 2008

squeezing bees

just grabbed the 2nd bee in 3 days, from the same sponge by my sink!

i pick up the sponge without looking, and suddenly i am holding a tiny fierce ember.

honeybees die when they sting. i cried the other night--not from the pain, but from the anguish of extinguishing that tiny life.

today i am just sad.


Friday, November 07, 2008

couldn't help it!

i'm positive this has been blogged WIDELY--but it is just such superb writing, and so perfectly expresses my sentiments, that i had to post it too.

Open Letter to Barack Obama from Alice Walker
Nov. 5, 2008

Dear Brother Obama,

You have no idea, really, of how profound this moment is for us. Us being the black people of the Southern United States. You think you know, because you are thoughtful, and you have studied our history. But seeing you deliver the torch so many others before you carried, year after year, decade after decade, century after century, only to be struck down before igniting the flame of justice and of law, is almost more than the heart can bear. And yet, this observation is not intended to burden you, for you are of a different time, and, indeed, because of all the relay runners before you, North America is a different place. It is really only to say: Well done. We knew, through all the generations, that you were with us, in us, the best of the spirit of Africa and of the Americas. Knowing this, that you would actually appear, someday, was part of our strength. Seeing you take your rightful place, based solely on your wisdom, stamina and character, is a balm for the weary warriors of hope, previously only sung about.

I would advise you to remember that you did not create the disaster that the world is experiencing, and you alone are not responsible for bringing the world back to balance. A primary responsibility that you do have, however, is to cultivate happiness in your own life. To make a schedule that permits sufficient time of rest and play with your gorgeous wife and lovely daughters. And so on. One gathers that your family is large. We are used to seeing men in the White House soon become juiceless and as white-haired as the building; we notice their wives and children looking strained and stressed. They soon have smiles so lacking in joy that they remind us of scissors. This is no way to lead. Nor does your family deserve this fate. One way of thinking about all this is: It is so bad now that there is no excuse not to relax. From your happy, relaxed state, you can model real success, which is all that so many people in the world really want. They may buy endless cars and houses and furs and gobble up all the attention and space they can manage, or barely manage, but this is because it is not yet clear to them that success is truly an inside job. That it is within the reach of almost everyone.

I would further advise you not to take on other people's enemies. Most damage that others do to us is out of fear, humiliation and pain. Those feelings occur in all of us, not just in those of us who profess a certain religious or racial devotion. We must learn actually not to have enemies, but only confused adversaries who are ourselves in disguise. It is understood by all that you are commander in chief of the United States and are sworn to protect our beloved country; this we understand, completely. However, as my mother used to say, quoting a Bible with which I often fought, "hate the sin, but love the sinner." There must be no more crushing of whole communities, no more torture, no more dehumanizing as a means of ruling a people's spirit. This has already happened to people of color, poor people, women, children. We see where this leads, where it has led.

A good model of how to "work with the enemy" internally is presented by the Dalai Lama, in his endless caretaking of his soul as he confronts the Chinese government that invaded Tibet. Because, finally, it is the soul that must be preserved, if one is to remain a credible leader. All else might be lost; but when the soul dies, the connection to earth, to peoples, to animals, to rivers, to mountain ranges, purple and majestic, also dies. And your smile, with which we watch you do gracious battle with unjust characterizations, distortions and lies, is that expression of healthy self-worth, spirit and soul, that, kept happy and free and relaxed, can find an answering smile in all of us, lighting our way, and brightening the world.

We are the ones we have been waiting for.

In Peace and Joy,
Alice Walker