This entire world is illusory and yet i am certainly partial to particulars about it. The wisp of energy i still feel between that fellow and myself is a reminder that i seek connection, without remembering that there is nothing else. He and i are certainly connected in a true "wireless" fashion, but i have stopped sending sexual longing through that channel, and therefore feel much less in return. Sigh.
May i never feel the urge or the need to remind someone exactly why i'm so wonderful. May i accept my intrinsic wonderfulness without the urge or need to have that recognition bolstered by anyone outside of me. May my wonderfulness be reflected in the eyes of all i encounter as i show them theirs.