today's Blogthing

You Should Play the Guitar

You're very independent--both in spirit and in the way you learn. You can teach yourself almost anything, even if it makes your fingers bleed. You're not really the type to sit patiently through a music lesson--or do things by the book. It's more your style to master the fundamentals and see where they take you. Highly creative and a bit eclectic, you need a wide range of music to play. You could emerge as a sensitive songwriter... or a manic rock star. Your dominant personality characteristic: being rebellious. Your secondary personality characteristic: tenacity.

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

hmmmm--so am i tenaciously rebellious, or rebelliously tenacious? i'd say yes to both. you?

huge thundering rain last night, so this morning is dawning damp and dewy and deafeningly full of cicada choruses. i'm off to the Sweat in a short while. have a blessed day!

purple is as purple does

You Are Grape

You are bold and a true individual. You are very different and very okay with that. People know you as a straight shooter. You're very honest, even when the truth hurts. You are also very grounded and practical. No one is going to sneak anything by you. People enjoy your fresh approach to life. And it's this honesty that makes you a very innovative person.

What Color Purple Are You?

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i called my ex-sweetie about a week ago, just to say hi. it had been awhile since we last spoke. he sent me a box of all the books i ever gave him a couple of months ago, and though i left a message at that time, he never called back. so i wanted to find out what was going on with that.

according to him, "there was some pressure" for him to get rid of them coming from his new girlfriend. i was ready to dismiss her as being hopelessly backwards when i said, well i really called to say Goodbye, and his reaction was immediate and emphatic: NO, i don't want to let go!

imagine someone hanging onto you for over a year since the breakup. said breakup was also messy and confusing due to a lack of honest communication.

i have felt kind of weird since this phone call, and also a lot more understanding of her issues. if he is indeed still "hanging on" to me, or to some fantasy about me, then she will be able to feel that on a deep level. saying goodbye was a good idea. maybe he will redirect the energy he's been clinging to me with, to his current affair.

at any rate, i had a chakra cleansing today. many of my chakras were stuck and once i imagined cutting all the ties to ex-sweetie, they opened up and began spinning in the right direction.

now, maybe i can get on with my life too and perhaps even attract someone new. how bizarre. imagine dating in the 5th decade of life. but it is time to shake up my life and a new man is one of the best ways i can think of to do it. watch out!

:)

hot

it's 85 in my casita today, and that's with the cooler going on high (only one speed) and those 2 vornado-type floor fans blowing away.

the "cooler" (ha) brings the temp down--as long as the relative humidity stays below 20%--and the fans can direct the moving air to make it feel a little more personally cool. there's one for me and one for Sun Bear, for whom the heat is excruciatingly debilitating.

i have been dipping into the stock tank inside my backyard screen house most every day, and boy what a difference a big ol' puddle makes when it is 98 degrees with relative humidity up in the 20's. we are so dry here that any humidity over about 15 percent makes us whine. i know, this is nothing compared to the midwest or the southeast, or even sometimes the northeast, but there you go.

i moved here from Florida, before that lived in Georgia, before that lived in Delaware. i knew what i was leaving behind, and i did it on purpose. gotta say, the ferocity of the sun's rays here is distinctly more intense than sunlight filtered through air with water in it.

meanwhile, it's really hot! did i mention that?

the monsoon clouds build up most afternoons, usually to the east and north. the other day i was totally convinced it was going to storm, and waited at home for an hour before realizing that the clouds had drawn back and away without bringing any rain to MY backyard (the truest measure of actual precipitation here--"did it rain at your house?" often only a mile, or portion thereof, separates the wets from the wet-nots).

i loaded up the dogs and headed to the Rillito, where the deeply slanting rays of the early evening sun hit the green cottonwoods and the dark gray masses of clouds bulked in the northeastern sky. it was a gorgeous tableau, and the temperature had dropped with all of the cloud cover, and the breeze was strong out of the south.

it was a beautiful half hour and i still remember the wonder and peacefulness of being able to be out in nature alone with my dogs, and also really appreciating it since i have temporarily abandoned our morning walks. i am sleeping too late and my bum knee, while improving, is still bum enough for me to forgo those walks for another few weeks.

i have been working with a personal trainer, 3 times now, to address said knee. he is good and i am improving.

happy 4th of july tomorrow; a rare holiday that i actually am not working!