all in a week's time!

suddenly and totally unexpectedly, am completely enmeshed in yet another romance; geez, this has certainly been a busy Spring for me!

details? naw, not yet. wait for it.

8^D

why is it

that as soon as i decide i'm moving on, one or the other of my most recent dead ends reconnects?

just got a very kind and long email from the Mexican Romance who is back home after being on the road for ~3 months. he asked me to call him, and i had to email him back that i'd deleted his phone number (and eddress, and FaceBook info) from my life so that i could restrain myself from contacting him. so, he called me and we are trying to figure out the middle ground between 'never speaking again' and 'getting married'. i assured him that i understand and respect his boundaries, and he apologized for leaving me in the dust without a word (sic).

not sure what will happen here, but at least i don't feel completely nuts anymore. we DID have a good connection, beyond the obvious thrills. and i AM an amazingly understanding woman with a lot to offer.

a month later,

i keep imagining he'll call or email, and it's just idiotic.

he is not calling. it was over after that first week of March.

i am a slow learner about some things; and i must say, i spend way more time worrying about, 'Why Didn't He Pick Me?' than i do about, 'Would I Have Picked Him?'

unfortunately, i get totally overwhelmed if the physical thing clicks, because i am so picky in that department. it clicked all right, but there are other important parameters that i tend to ignore until it's too late.

so, all in all, it was a perfect Booty Call.

luscious, incredible, mutual, super-wonderful physical fun for a week, and now he's gone. i will not bump into him at Trader Joe's, for example, with his latest booty call on his arm.

he is out there exploring the wide world--doing at 49 what i did for much of my 20's and 30's. bless his little pea-pickin' heart.

and should he remember me, let him do so with a smile on his lips for the fun adventures we shared!