back to work

i had 2 days in a row completely, totally OFF!

often i will schedule several light days vs. one heavy one, as massage takes a lot out of me--never more than i am willing to give, but my energy does wane after 3-4 treatments, and i'd rather do 2 a day for 2 days (especially if they are private clients and i am driving to their house and humping my table in and out) than 4 in one day.

what i am trying to say is that i often have days that are not terribly busy, but if i have even one appointment, i'm WORKING. so it's a rare thing to have 2 consecutive days off.

we had such a lovely time in sabino canyon sunday. yesterday was sort of a lazy day, with the added bonus of lots of interpersonal processing. what i said in the midst of a particularly strenuous moment was, God Is Sewing Us Together And Sometimes It Hurts Like Hell.

(but then again sometimes it tickles)



as much as i will hate to see chris go, i know that it's time for us to be by ourselves again.

OK, let me make that personal--i know i need to be by myself again for awhile.

there are certain things one can only learn in solitude, and certain other things one learns by being in relationship with another. i've been shown many areas i can work on in the coming months. i'll see how well i did, when we spend another big chunk of time together.

i would like to be more active in the near future (read chris' blog for his description of his 14 MILE HIKE last friday--i could no more do that than neurosurgery!). i'd like to lose about 35 pounds so that i feel better naked. i want to take more yoga classes, ride my bike more, and start hiking in the small amount of nice weather left before the heat comes.

i would also like to further explore both tibetan buddhism and jin shin jyutsu, 2 things i've shared with chris in the hopes of stimulating his interest in them as well. i think having shared courses of study would be muy cool!

and of course, chris has giant question marks in his life concerning his next domicile, his custody hearings, his job details. he tells me that the bridges are just barely covered with the staff on hand (i.e. i could probably get hired on if i decided to move!--ha) so he will have a regular shift this year, instead of being vacation relief. so much is up in the air for him, that i don't even know when i'll see him next, although i'm leaning towards a long weekend some time in late may.

so these next few precious days will be poignant and bittersweet; the end of our 3rd date is fast approaching.