how it is now

it is very, very sweet right now between us.

we had a couple of bad days right after he came back from KY....he was sick and exhausted, and i was working a lot. i felt like i had "been there" for him up to, during, and after his ordeal; and now i wanted him to "be there" for me--but he was still not fully recovered from the double whammy of travel + illness (+ being accused of terrible things by an unfriendly "ex" as well--guess that's a triple whammy, huh?).

#1 rule of relationships: don't ever, EVER "expect" your mate to be able to pick you up when you're down. even if you trade off on picking each other up, there will inevitably come a time when you're BOTH down.

we all need to remember the unseen force that moves in all things. THAT'S what will pick you up when you are down.

ennaway (that's how we Western folk say "anyway"), it was a miserable 2 days where we were edgy and uncomfortable around each other until we talked it all out.

i must say, a good temper tantrum helps bring everything into sharp focus. how will we deal with discord? how will we process the recovery? how will we make up (best part!)?

we did really well and now i am finding him completely irresistible. how's that for a comeback?

and yes, we are planning the dreaded day of departure--but i don't really want to talk about it.